So this is my new blog for Jana Zerpoli Photography...but Jana Zerpoli Photography isn't just about my passion for capturing life and gifting those captured moments to you. Its also about me and part of my story the Lord wrote involves a beautiful gift that we celebrate today. So today I will share a little about that part of "me" to help you get to know what has helped to shape the person I am.
Someone asked me recently about loosing a child, “Does it get any easier as time goes by?” As I thought about it, I replied, “I am not sure if it is that it is easier or that you just learn to live with it better.”
For the believer grief is a strange thing, we rejoice in the fact that our loved one is with our Lord, but of course we have human hearts and so we will ache that which is missing until we are together again. “ But we do not want you to be uninformed, brothers, about those who are asleep, that you may not grieve as others do who have no hope. For since we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so, through Jesus, God will bring with him those who have fallen asleep." 1 Thess. 4:13-14
We have hope, we have never doubted what God’s choices and plans were. Shanna’s life had a purpose, she was not ashamed, she wore cancer bravely, she impacted those she met even at her young age. And although God only gifted her to us for 11 years, we are thankful and we rejoice! This is part of our story, my other children’s lives have been shaped by having a sister with cancer, they are kind and compassionate, faithful and beautiful. Do I wish she was still here? Oh the thought of it gives me shivers, what would she be like? Yes I ache especially on this day the Lord gave her to us, 35 years ago. Can you imagine Shanna at 35? Oh my goodness, makes me smile through the tears.
Does it get easier 23 years later? I'm not sure, but as we always have...we make it a happy day, we celebrate her today...we celebrate the gift God gave us, her spirit! Today we will go to Fridays (her favorite place to eat) as we have for the last 23 years and we will find a funny movie as she would prefer. Today my sweet, courageous, amazing, hilarious, beautiful girl we will celebrate you!! Happy Birthday Shanna...until we meet again rejoice with the angels today!